Lucky I'm In Love With My Best Friend

Over the past week, I realized..
I'll never find anyone like you.
Who would accept my every flaw.
Who would always be there no matter what.
Sure there are ups and downs
But they're not important.
A journey of 3 years
It isn't gonna end here.
Not now, not ever.
You're not just someone that treats me better than anyone else.
You're my best friend,
My pillar
My confidante
My brother
My most important person.
You're like family.

The Past

Today was a good day
It felt like everything was back to where it was before.
Thank you for giving me a happiness that no one can replace :)
Although sometimes you really annoy me and make me cry,
But that's okay.
Cause these little things don't matter if we look at the big picture.
:)
But today kinda sucked as well.
I wouldn't wanna say it here.
But just... I wanted to tell you, but I guess it wasn't fated?
Oh well, life goes on doesn't it?
Always look on the bright side of life :)

I'm sorry.

I know this time it was my fault.
And sorry won't change anything now.
But I really didn't mean it. I swear.
Anyway you won't believe me now.
I'm sorry...
Is this one mistake going to destroy everything..?
After all we've been through..?
Please tell me it won't..
Please tell me it's gonna be okay.
Please.

Maybe?

Maybe they're right.
It seems like I care about you more than you do.
But I don't wanna believe that.
I have never regretted choosing you.
So please tell me you don't either.
No.
Don't tell me, show me you don't.
And just let me have a peace of mind.

Drifting away?

So prelims are coming up.
In less than a month or so
and it's been really strenuous these few weeks cause of the workload.
So deprived or rest :(
And I've been drifting away from my gang.
A little.
I don't like this at all.
Sigh.
But what to do?
My studies are my upmost priority now and I can't let myself get distracted.
I shall make an effort to sacrifice some time for them sooner or later.
At least I have things to be thankful for.
So... I passed everything except for ss.
Stupid ss -.-
Got 80 for chem (not bad hehe)
And 68% for overall.
But moving on to the more important things,
I'm thankful that everything is in place now :)
Really thankful.
I'm glad that I have everything I need, and I won't ask for more.
Time to mug now!
Post again soon :)

Frustrated

I need sleep.
Like now.
But everytime I lie on my bed, I start thinking and thinking.
And my mind doesn't stop creating scenarios until hours later.
Sigh.
I'm so deprived of sleep.
So exhausted
But I just can't shut my mind down dammit.
So tired so tired so tired,
Okay time to force myself to sleep.
Goodnight world.

Happiness?

No. Today didn't turn out all right after all.
What did I do wrong this time?
I may not be prefect, but I tried.
I really tried this time. I tried my best.
All I was asking for..wasn't too much, was it?
Just a bit of your time.
Because I wanted to see you, I wanted to spend some time with you.
Was that my fault..?
Why did you start shouting..
I even put my pride aside..but it wasn't enough.
So tell me what I have to do,
Just to get you to look at me a few more times.
They say people give up not because it gets difficult,
But because it's no longer worth it.
How true.
I'm no longer worth it.
Actions speak louder than words.
You told me this once before.
Yet you...
It proved a lot. Really a lot.
I'm so tired of crying.
I'm sick of crying.
It's exhausting.
I just want to be happy.. That's all.